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Sunday, June 17, 2007

SOMETIMES, I AM JUST LOST :(

THE WORLD HAD TOO MUCH CHANGES FOR ME TO FOLLOWED-UP.

MY LIFE SEEMS DANGLING IN THE MIDDLE.

MY PATH AINT CONCRETE, IT IS SWAYING AWAY.

GOD, I REALLY NEED TO WORK THINGS OUT SOON.

lately, i just been pondering much...
feel i haven been doing things that are fulfilling enough to give my life a kick.
the last time i decide to push myself further was to learn more about marketing and accounting despite the fact of having to deal with piano and guitar practices.

when talking to the in -charge of a modeling agency SHINE.
he asked me if biy was get into modeling line,
will i stop him, or encourage him.
being it his interest..
and he crap alot.
asking how long we have met,
and saying that my decision matters alot to his future path in entertainment industry.

owells.
like i always said, it is his decision.
i will just respect it (:
the thing that he say make me think hard about myself was what are my goals.
like he asked have i ever wonder of being a famous figure out on street.
i have an answer straight in his face, NO !
then he say really as it was almost 99% of the dream of all teens out there.
wells, not for me.
i jolly well belongs to that 1% with gladness and pride (:

then he continued asking what are my goals then.
and i said, to be a teacher.
a dream since young...
it was then,
i realized that this dream,
this goal seems to drift even further each time i mention abt it.

like for now,
term break is ending soon,
yet i haven make much improvment.
for academic wise,
i just didnt did much and wasted my holiday just so,
UT on the first day of school.
here, i am left with only tmr to study for it.
resume not written,
despite having to say that i will do it over a zenilion times.
owells, it is just so me that I AM PLAIN LAZY CURRENTLY !
arghs, not ought to be.

i made up my mind of concentrating on my piano exams first.
then back to guitar.
if realized.
if able to cope with my time managment well,
two wasn't a problem in fact,
jus that i didn't plan (:
i am too tired to do so,
wantin to just excel in everything but not planning it well.
i regreted badly.

get back that sprite in you, miao.
do yourself proud (:

my vows;
PRACTICE MAKE PERFECT.
PLANNING MAKE WONDERS.
FOR THE EARLY BIRDS THAT GET THE WORMS.
AND THE SECOND MICE THAT GET THE CHEESE.

slow aint the end of world,
sometimes...
thing just need time to work out,
AS LONG AS I HAVE THE WILL,
THERE'S A WAY ((:

my dirty lil secrets___
6/17/2007 12:02:00 AM