These days I felt that emotional distort took over me once again. I don't know why. I just get angry easily somehow though I am always smiling. Deep inside I am yelling and screaming, cause I have hurt lots whom I loved. I don't know why I am like this. such an arse and that's it !

I cause him to get pissed off with me lately. I said things that hurt him and had nv been nice and great to him. I am touch by all that he did but yet I always hurt him instead of being grateful I dont know why. I don't really believe such good things happen, or shld I say I do believe just that I refuse to admit that I believe? wells, yst he is right to have tell me off. I ain't angry with him in fact I am glad that he always hold on and give me desipte the faults lies in me. I just don't know how to express my gratitude and my care for him as I am a girl ? And I dont think that a girl shld say sorry but now I know it is dumb for me to think in this stupidity manner! I know if I didn't want to lose, I got to do something... but I needed time to change my mindset that not all guys do something cause they expect a return. I know I shldn't be like this. I ought to change, but will he have the paitence to wait? I wonder. I really hope he could..
sorry for all the nonsense I create ! hurting you and giving you troubles but nothing. I am sorry for being demanding and not keeping my promises everytime, I dont knw if you do trust words like the way I do.. but my blog are all about I feel, I wont lie in my blog. I meant what I say here... SORRY =[

and I really wasnt feeling good after reading her blog. I always tot that thing had change for the better. But from the day, I told her I couldnt get into her blog cause she change her pw and stuff. I know she didnt want me to read... reason wise, I am unsure of! I know that it is not right of me to hack inside and read but she force me too? Cause I bother about this friendship and I didnt want to spoil this bond we had these years... I treasure it. That's why when she didnt bother about me, and ignore all the calls and smsed I call and sms. It isn't great. Yet, now you are fussing that I am the one who didnt tell you think and I wasnt somone signicant in your life then fine. Doubt I am wrong about our friendship. I shldnt even bother so much. It is now up to you to mend it back. If you dont then there is nothing I could do but to accept the fact having to try all means and giving in to you.

Anyways, I somehow dislocate my left arm that it hurt now and then? the bone is dented in ! rather obvious if you compare my two arms. my brother say is normal and what I need is good rest and not to carry heavy bag and stuff. Simple just allow my arm to rest.

For all that had happened lately, I am please to have my secondary school clique. be it my gfs or bfs to be by my side all these times. Never letting me go desipte all the incidents that happen, our friendship stayed strong! I love you people and I thanks you for being there for me.
For my classmate, mah & don. thanks brothers for all your support.
and him who always stand by me. Biy, I am sorry for all that I did but I'm delighted you didnt abandoned me and lit me on. thanks love.

LIKE SHE SAY... I SHALL TREASURE THOSE PEOPLE I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT AND NOT PEOPLE I CAN LIVE WITHOUT, LIKE HER THEN =DD

my dirty lil secrets___
11/12/2006 05:08:00 PM