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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Just some ramdom thoughts that is running through my mind at this moments.
I realized that things are more complex and confusion has start to take control over us now.
simply we are all lost, we lose our way in this complication situation that we didnt know what to do now, what shld our next step be and what our mind wants us to do and what our soul and heart wanted. Everything is simply so random eh. I didnt want to believe in the truth as the truth dont last since all good thing will eventually coms to an end. So no point eh.
Owells, yet I am somehow longing for a confirmation and longing to believe in what I didnt want to believe. I know I am contridicting myself here, but human are like that right? always wanted to believe in something they long for yet on the other hand they will try all means to reject the acceptance of this thoughts? wells, what can I say then. let's simply allow nature take its course.

I realized that I didnt ponder hard on what I say sometimes. I always say what I feel and what I wanna say at that point of time and sometimes I have hurt others even without noticing. Fine, I am dumb. maybe it is also the actions and behaviour I am telling the rest? I dont know?

I am lost like anyone else now.
I didnt know what I actually wanted to be specfic.
I dont know if my heart is really dead.
I wanna feel but all that comes are those recalls of hurts and pains I yearn to forget.

AH, SCREAMS ! =)

maybe I am just tired.

Everyone want that miracle to happen.
yet, miracle dont occurs.

Somehow I miss Winson now !
I miss the time he actually listen to me whines about my life, complains I made abt my crushes and stuff.. he just listen and always cheering me up. Calling me when I am on the verge on dying from my busy shecdule, he knew so well when I needed him to be...
yet, cause of smoking and cancer... I lose him...
Though I used to blame him that he didnt even wanted to say goodbye to me having to say how much he actually loves me and stuffs though I knew that I am harsh to him as I always didnt want to listen to the truth of his confession as I didnt want to lose him. I miss you.

If god allow, can you get back to my life again in our next life.

I really regreted if only I did stop you long ago to not smoke and also to take note more about your condition of your illness then.... I would not just lose you like this.
but why you wanna lie to me that it is just a common flu when you are so sick in the hospital ?
I know then I am having Midyear and you knew I wan to do well and I know that you didnt want me to know cause you wanted me to be in my best state when having my exam but the point is you lied. despite knowing that I hate liars so much and stuff. WHY ?
I really miss you WIN, I wanna tell you and ask you what I should do now.

I am lost..

if only Miracle had happen then....
i wont have lose you to those side effect...

do you knw that I am so happy that exams is gonna be over then...
then I could celebrate your birthday for you happily, it is just two more days but you didnt wait for me to end my exam....or maybe you tried but god took you away from me.
i missed.

I dont knw larhs.

All I know right now is that Lys is going to dont knw what investigation now and i am wondering how he is doing now. and I just came to realized that it is really so wrong for a clique of gf/bf to fall for the same person? is like so wrong can! but if we actually see the bigger picture, I realized that although a clique of guys/gurls can fall for the same guy/gurl but the point is that they shld mind their friendship and it is possible for us to know how to let go sometimes.

LOVE is not everything.

Moreover, LOVE cant be force like we know.

neways, it is still the choice of the guy/gurl to go for who he/she likes. not?

wells. I agreed and did mention in my earlier post that we are humans of cause we will lose our directions sometimes and be indugle of that emo-ness in us.

everyone think and feel the same way. it is a matter of how we go about with the solution, right?

and so let time just sort our thoughts out =))
all you need is time,

when you're lost.

feel it back, follow what your heart and ur soul .

go with what you think is good for you and what you believe in...

it is not the outcome that matters, what matter is that at least you tried you best in getting the truth and be back on track =)
pick yourself up ppl.

go with what you think is right !

* passer-bys comments can be taken into account thru' ur thinking tots but still be strong abt your stand and that is best way our to arrive to a conculsion.

.I MET. I MISS. I LOST.

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10/11/2006 10:04:00 AM