Tues and wed, went for guitar chalet and it was awsome,
the first time I get a ride in a pick up too. wahahahs =))
owells, that is not the point.
the point is many of my friends & senior make my day.
as they knew my birthday was last sun,
my friend got a me a necklace and a GREEN butterfly ring in a GREEN box.
thanks, was really touch to have recieve them,
as I thought after those conflict bet us,
we won't be that great friends anymore.
Wells, I was wrong!
So touch that I am lost for words at the point of time,
nothing can describe the emotions struggling I am going thru then.
As the next day we will be checking out alrd,
so chienyu and rw decide to leave for home after bbq that night,
but if they had stay they wont regret.
there is times where we really got nothing to do but rot but whenever we are so bored, activities will start to flow.
Around two in the morning, we got out the cake and celebrated sept babies birthdays.
ShuHui and I was the only two sept birthday babies left,
since Aizat went home after bbq.
wells, then had a taste of voka and i regret drinking it as i start to itch not long after the alcohol start to reacts. haha ! oh oh, after which zack & wl damn nice can,
they gave me birthday bash =) THANKS ARHS !!! haha .
and also xiang thank for wishing me thru sms ,
it is more than enough alrd larhs,
dont have to feel guilty for not being able to stay till the cutting of cake =)

wells. the next day.
on the way home, went to pack LJS for rine and me .
Since i have promised her that I'll be buying her breakfast or lunch on my way home.
when i got to her house, she is still slping can .
then telling me that she had a hearty chat with lynn and she cried yst.
I knew it wasnt because of her new hair cut but is him that makes her cry.
I know what she is going through but just that I didnt knw what to do and how to protect her from these...
ended up telling her about what he feels about her and stuffs.
In the end, she cried badly.
she felt that he and me are somehow having that chemistry and she is like being like a fool...
That wasnt the truth in actual facts, it is just assumptions.
I really dont knw how to tell her that nyp is still the one I am waiting for now,
as for him we just merely clickable that's why...
maybe it is also cause we are from the same school?
oh wells. it wasn't easy for me to open my mouth and having to see her going through all these all over again is like I was feeling bad, cause I couldnt do anything to make her feel better.
I regreted telling her not because I knew that truth hurts and I rather she not know at all and be the bubberly girl I knew all along. I love to see her smile and being so carefree, eversince her last breakup and having to get over him and stuff...
this is the first time ever since then she is so happy can.
That is the main reason why I didnt want to remove the smile on her face.
She said that it is better that she knew the truth and that I don't understand her... that's hurt.
I know that these days, we wont be what we used to be as it is hard to pretend that such things didnt happen...
I really didnt know what to do.
I didnt dare telling her when I called her that night when I saw her walking with darling toward J8 .
I rang them up. but she didnt answer. it was darling that answer.
wells, then i realized that maybe i shouldnt even have called.
but when you came online and talk to me saying about fetching me up yst aft my guitar I was so gladful that things turn out for the better....
I dont knw what I should do to make thing get back to normal.
or rather just let it be what it is... if this make you feel better wife.
Sorry for wasn't being about to protect you from these harms... though I tried my best.
and i wan you to know that it is because friendship meant so much to me that I didnt wish to bother and tell you the truth not that I dont understand you and i regreted telling you not because of what but rather I felt that I cause your hopes and dreams to be dashed which is what I didnt want to do at all.... is like pushing you back to the cage of saddness once again.
let hope that things will turn out for the better...

lastly, stop trying to mislead me again . mr nyp, I know I am merely just a passer by in your life. Therefore, you dont really have to try to make up by smsing me or what. the fact is that you really forgets about my birthday and also not bothering to reply me when i wish you on urs b'day. and also dont need to act that you wanted to chat with me thru smsing . I have see the bigger picture.
wells, I SEE NO POINT FOR YOU TO DO SO! =)

my dirty lil secrets___
9/23/2006 04:51:00 PM