All these two months, today's the happiest day of all for me =)
I spent like almost the whole day at TP. haha.
I learnt alot there, I learn to be stronger to face people who don't understand me.
I get to know Liny's husband; Angeline.
She is sweet and cheer me up. had a great chat with her and she turns me on (:
haha. she taught me that these are parts and parcels of life.
we ought to grow up with these to be stronger.
there isn't a point to cry, breakdowns helps to reflief the stress but not the pains.
So no point crying. The thing is to believe in what we think that's true.
BE OURSELF.
thanks CLON (:
haha, no wonder Missy Liny say you acts like me.
we click (: LOL !

wells, I lovee TP.
Being there is like great.
no stress, nothing.
friends cheered me up and brought me joy.
they took away those pains and inplanted peace & happiness in me.
this makes me strong to face school & classmates.
I even fall sick cause of these, but they didnt mind.
they make sure that I am well taken care of and they craps abt with me.
FUNs to be there.
to feel blessed with joys & laughters.
THANKS PEOPLE (:
LOVEE.

back to school.
I did go to school and reach before 830am.
EARLY CAN. but i didnt want to step into class.
One reason is that my eyes hurts, they swell like anything. OUCH.
next I didnt want to face them nor see them cause of my eyes.
I didnt want to admit I knew things gg on.
I didnt want to bother them,
I also know that I couldn't explain anymore, as they just believe in their pt of view.
So I choosed to ignore all ignorants.
I even blamed myself sometimes which I think is stupid (:

wells, other than that is because I hate Science lesson.
now that I am feeling better, really.
I SWEARED. deep down my heart, those anger & depressions are simply washed off by friends' concerns and cares.
At least, even if they dont understand me. it is because we aint bonded.
there are my close buddies to know me well and be there for me.
there's nothing to lose.

Grace was sweet.
She IM me asking me about wed.
maybe she is curious about why I haven been myself lately during practices & also why out of the sudden I skipped guitar practice on wed.
so out of concern she asked me.
I told her, you shld roughly knows what is going on right ?
she said, guess so.
then she told me things that I feel touch.
this is what she says:
girls, there are always people who dont understand you.
Blame you for things that wasn't your fault.
take it easy, smile.
as know why. there are still others who are there and likes you for who you're.
hee hee. and wrote me a sweet testimonial too.
faints (:
it is like grr. I do have some misunderstanding abt her all along.
but we talk it out and she is like nice.

guess when you are down and people whom is like not even that close or ever quarrels with u say such thing, the sweetness is still there to warm your cold heart (:
lovee. thanks girl.

oh oh, that stupid shits.
HUIKEE's mad.
know what she do.
the moment I meet her at TP library,
she took my HP and called Darryl.
at first, I tot she was joking.
but when it turn out to be true, i am like OMG.
WHAT THE HELL YOU ARE DOING ! AH .
and angeline got a shock out of it. haha (:
ops.
and the silly part is that she called him w/o knowing what to says.
then she say:
kee: oh, hello. Darryl arhs.
D: yah?
kee: oh , are you in school ?
D: yah. in design canteen
kee: having break now ?
D: eh , yah.
then huikee tries to push the phone to me , i am like NO . you mad girl. settle it yourself.
then she continues...
kee: eh , miao is in TP. eh .. yah.
then she hang up without even a bye. is like OMG, shits.
arghs .
then I am like so panic as it is nonsense can, she's mad larhs ! crazy girl, haha (:
is like what if Darryl is like "HUH", why you tell me.
haha. whatever it is, she makes my day gone bonks. haha.
in the end, she msged him using my HP but did mention her name, and she say she is just bored.
nonsesne girl ((:

then, the outmost stupidiest thing happen.
when I was dragged by Lin to go her tutorial, her teacher disallow me to acc her.
So I told her I get back to library and waited for her there with huikee.
And just nice when I was waiting for the lift, I'm also msging CS.
so didnt really bother who is ard, haha .
then the lift came and went I was about to get in, I heard this familiar voice saying "hi".
so I turn and look up.
Omg, it is him.
i said Hi and walked into the lift with a smile. haha.
I avoided him last sat & today I meet him just like that.
this is the first time I saw him ever since we broke out.
I felt that it is actually not that bad to bum into him,
is like I knew I like him even after the break-up.
I knew all along that this infatuation of me toward him never just dies off.
it is an ON & OFF sort of feelings.
but at least I knew what my hearts wants nw....
i always tot that seeing him will makes me even bother abt the sort of relations we are in nw.
In fact, it clearly tells me that we are merely friends.
though I admits that still my hearts pumps a lil faster when I sees him but at least no longer to the extend of having to run away from him (:
haha.

Cheers, being in TP was great.
thanks for all you guys did, even if it is just a msg, a chat but i am contented (:
I LOVEE YOU PEOPLE. GREAT TO BE THERE TODAY.
LOVEE LOVEE.

oh oh, and for Rona if you happens to read?
thanks for the drink, really.
THANKS !
just that it is really that me and edison are the only two person in our clique that comes RP.
I knw you all will says that what abt weihow and the rest.
but do you all know that they aint my close friends...
is like they are my friends. but not those who know me INSIDE OUT.
as in REALLY INSIDE OUT.
that's why me and edison is like the only two who shared the same bonds.
our clique all knew abt RP thing. but they cant help us and also they most of them either in TP if not NYP. and me and edi is both in RP that is why we dont want to bother em' much and so we are so close as we confide secrets to each other.

ME AND HIM JUST CLOSE BUDDIES AND NOTHING MORE.
THE BONDS WE SHARE IN OUR CLIQUE IS JUST THAT YOU ALL WONT UNDERSTAND ONE, i guessed.
but dont need to be jealous. really.
EDI lovee you alot.
You are like his first gf!
It is just that he is new at r/s and is kinda lost sometimes.
and needed to talk to someone whom happen to be me.
He lovee you alot, but he didnt know how to express it out.
he is always that blur since the first day we met, but that's the true him.
so I hoped you understand my stand.
I didnt meant to hurt you if I really do .
sorry, but asking us to give up of our friendship cause of this...
we cant do so.
this special bonds we have are too strong for anything stupid to break it aparts.
i know you are feeling terrible, but what abt me .
you all never understand.
the thing i wanna say is that in our clique we do quarrels but even major quarrels will end up small and none of us are at loggerheads with each other for more than a wk.
this is the special bonds we have, we forgive and let go.
As we knew and understand each other well enough.
so please respect our friendship, alrights (:
and the thing is you are his gf, dont you trust him ?
right? esp when he actually did alot of sweet things just for you that do you know he is braver than he used to be nw? he changed quite alot for you, really (:
so get the facts right people.
I dont blame you for your ignorants.
but do cares for other feelings.
GET THE FACTS RIGHT BEFORE ASSUMING AND COMING TO CONCLUSION.
morover, this had nothing really to do with you people right ?
seeing the facts not just means what you see from the surface.
this you all shld get it CLEAR !
dont be childish, I cant really be bothered anymore.
after this post, I state my views.
up to you to believe or continue your point of view.
I am finee with it.
it is really no point draggin.
I HAVE TORTURE IT LONG ENOUGH (:

my dirty lil secrets___
8/17/2006 09:59:00 PM