i had a long week man. So many things happen that I didn't have a time to catch some fresh air, some good some bad. compiled them to make me mad (:

mon:
wasn't in a gd mood and so was like slack the whole day in school, even pontan half of the day.
The good thing is that my team was damn united for the first time that we pontan as a grp for the third meeting. haha ! Was surpose to meet cherine over at TP, in the end decide not and meet her at CCK to go and support Huajia's race (:
wee-wee. the emotional there was kinda tense, everyone is like screaming and cheering at the top of their voice. WOW, impressive can. Afterwhich, went to Bishan Mac to meet up with daniel to teach him science and late that night cherine came over to my house to rush her project till one am?

tues:
having damn stupid headache is all I rmb. Pontan again but this time ard, it is because jesslyn tempted us too... haha. She didnt want to stay as she thinks that the problem wasn't gonna help us learn anything. Making us tempted to leave. since I wasn't in the gd mood, I decide to leave too. This time it is eight of us leaving tgt and had lunch at pizza hut.
That time, I was still able to handle the pain in my head. it got worsen after lunch and my vision wasn't that clear... dammit.
Then Cs actually wanted to meet me but due to some internal conflict he is having with that girl. He say he cant meet me as usual. always lying. haha !
i knew i could make it home myself, as by that time I am so gizzy that I see double images.
Left with no choice but to call edison. Who knows the line was intercept and I am like talking to an idiot ABNN who get on my nerves and I break dwn crying at woodland mrt control station which is damn stupid. That makes my classmates freak out. ops.
I didn't know that Edison wanted to send Rona to work, I called him crying and ask if he can acc me home. Stupid right ? The minute i saw Rona, I am like so hell guilty as I know I did smthin wrong. wells, the day ended with piano lesson after a short nap after i got home soon later (:

wed:
nothing much happen, just happen to be the longest day i stay in school. Due to cca- guitar training. Was like playing the same song again. Luckily, it is gonna change the next trainign session. wee-wee! and this is the day where I got appointed as the leader( in-charge) of YR1.
which also mean, being the "MIC" to allow the year one to voice their thoughts. kinda stupid, but i have no choice ! ah. rawr.

thrus:
I wanted to pon-tan as the science module is like merely what we learnt in secondary school times but i can't. Cause i spend all my holidays already. dammit. haha! Wells, I can't too as there will be a meet up for the yr1 leader after school during the extra training. We are gonna have a concert too. was kinda looking forward to 5th of aug . wee-wee ! and meet CS to have dinner at bishan area... then head back home after numerous of calls from mum?
Cherine need to rush her project again and she came over to my hse at ard 11pm? then she is like doing and slackin hence she ended up completing her job only at 3am ! haha, so she slept with me. haha ! sound so wrong. she is my all time fav man (:
Loves.

fri:
As cherine stayed over, in the morning. We are late and went to settle small stuff then had breakfast at tpy YAkun, before both of us head off for school.
my moods didn't change for the better though it is already the last day of school, in fact. It got worsen. I totally lost control of myself and cried at night for no particular reasons. or should I say for all aspects? I don't know either.Maybe I think too highly of myself, or maybe I never let my heart free at all. I am tired. very indeed. I need some time off.
the only person that cause me to live in hell and suffered so much w/o able to voice out is YOU !
i really don't know if i shld hate you or not man .

sat:
Stop giving me hopes for all I cared. I am tired.
Why not get out of my life? Ignore me when I chat with you, don't start a conversation with me can? I don't want to guess what are you thinkin and i am really tired boy. I need some rest.
I am really exhuasted for all that I can . school, cca , family matters, you. Rawr, it is driving me mad ! I don't like it. I rather be a foe to you man. I tried to make myself give up by telling myself you had some other girl in mind. and that's the main reason why i wanted you to kp that picture on ur Dp. As i know, the more upset I got, the better I will be able to stand up and get my wound heal.
I really cant bring myself to hate you but to hate myself.
I just want to leave you and let my heart rest for a moment.
TIRED.

my dirty lil secrets___
7/13/2006 03:08:00 PM