19 july.
it is minhui's 18th birthday , hereby, let me sings her a birthday song:

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Tortise,
Happyy birthday to you. BLAH (:

wells, still rmb at about 1140 something, lilin & huikee had already ambushed themselves at outside of minhui's house so as when the clock strike 12, we're prepared to surprise her with what we did for her birthday gift. In order not to let the pig fell asleep and spoil the plan, I called Lilin to have a conference with minhui making sure she is widely awake. Haha! was a little stupid but sweet to have gave her that beautiful surprise. Although she wasn't really very the appreciative. rawr. I love you babe.


20july:
One day later, it is CS birthday. HAHA! He's happy as he got his wish come true.
We gave him a surprise by telling him to meet us for dinner but did not tell him that we are actually celebrating birthday for him. Today, as usual I went for the extra guitar practice since I didn't get to play on Wednesday as I got to settle some admin stuffs. I don't know why too but the moodness in me was gradually back. arghs.

I did so much already, why can't it just fades off. Please, don't torture me anymore. I am tired and I really can't take it any longer. PLEASE ):
I generally feels that I am no longer who I am, having a different character at a different point of time? I am so tired, all these mask I have been wearing so far ain't me. It is like I no longer know who I am now. Hello, can anyone please tell me what the hell is going on?
I hate school and I hate what I am leading and myself right now.

Force does help me to allow the feeling for you to fades off well, should I said all along it didn't fade off? Just that I refuses to admit it as I kept it in my heart not waiting to voice out?
Wells, continue to keep that DP up, it helps to add on my pain and i won't feel that bad already.

guitar:
Being in the commitee I don't mind to help out,
the problem is that...
I don't like people who are being sarcastic in front of me.
Like telling me and can chat with me so well on MSN.
but behind my back, condemn me like anything.
I don't mind if you just voice out how you feel rather than saying it behind my back.
I DISLIKE SUCH ACTS !
Also as I know that what I know going to happen and the rest can't sometime it is like so weird to tell them that I can't let you all know then I have to be the bad soul and lied to my classmates, during practice when I gone for meet up for some discussion, I couldn't let them know anything though they will ask what we talks about. It is like you know the feelings?
arghs , I have no choice and hope they dont blame me.

I am dying from all these stupid problems, anyone willingly to pull me out of these? ):

my dirty lil secrets___
7/20/2006 11:08:00 PM