Tell me what I should do? I’ve been saying that I must stop all these nonsense and move on with life. Yet I can’t manage to do so, lousy right? I already stop crying for you as I realize that it is foolish and stupid of me to do so. You don’t even give a damn about it! That’s also why the moment I saw the picture you took with the girl, I wanted you to keep it permanent as the DP so as to allow me to give up easier. My UT tests have been having been scoring well as compare to the pervious few. You are the one who filled up that emptiness in me all along. Now that I have to let you go, I really can’t bear too. This stupid infatuation I am having towards you has actually lasted throughout the past two year plus, though it is an On-Off feeling. I know deep down I wanted to chat with you but chatting with you is a tedious task. As I’ve to betray true self and act as if I do not like you anymore, as I am the one who had dump you that time. I knew that we are IMPOSSIBLE as we always had this big huge communication problem and had never ever had a hearty chat on the phone; all we had is sms-es and msning? Glad that you have found the right girl and thanks for listening to me and granting me this wish of putting that picture as DP on permanent. I really need to move on. The greatest problem I have is that how can I tell you that I still like you but I want to give up so as not to cause any more hurt to myself. How I wish you could just tell me that I am with her now and stuff like that. Although I know that I will be devastated by this news but at least it teaches me to grow up and face the fact to move on with life. Hence, please! Stop leading me on and telling me things that makes me go all out for you. The best is start to ignore me and don’t ever start a conversation with me, would you?

my dirty lil secrets___
7/18/2006 12:23:00 AM